Survived Tuesday -throws confetti-! Two meetings are over this week, but all the Halloween prep is piling and 1st Comm stay over in school on Friday to prep for Halloween next week! Gonna have sooooo little time for work, just hope everything will just turn out fine!

I actually like being busy and having the thought that things can never be finished/done because it just keeps me going and going. Even with homework that is never ending, and tests/assessments that just keeps coming. Feels like I'm actually doing something all the time, instead of just doing nothing which sucks. Besides that, being busy keeps my mind off negative thoughts, because I have not much time for it.

And being busy helps me deal with missing you. You gave me so much to remember, so much memories, and I'm still trying hard to get used to life without you. Trying to get used to the fact that you are no longer around all the time. Trying to get used to no good morning texts, no daily calls, no special someone to say goodnight to. Trying to get used to being independent. Trying to get used to the fact that you had long moved on and had been long long gone in my life.

But despite losing you, I have learnt so much more. And most importantly, I have learnt so much more about loving myself. Because if even I don't love myself, who will? And I am so thankful to have  wonderful family and friends that loves me too. :')  Just hope you are happier now with your decisions and you will eventually learn to treasure yourself more.

God bless you and everyone else :)

Survived Tuesday -throws confetti-! Two meetings are over this week, but all the Halloween prep is piling and 1st Comm stay over in school on Friday to prep for Halloween next week! Gonna have sooooo little time for work, just hope everything will just turn out fine!

I actually like being busy and having the thought that things can never be finished/done because it just keeps me going and going. Even with homework that is never ending, and tests/assessments that just keeps coming. Feels like I'm actually doing something all the time, instead of just doing nothing which sucks. Besides that, being busy keeps my mind off negative thoughts, because I have not much time for it.

And being busy helps me deal with missing you. You gave me so much to remember, so much memories, and I'm still trying hard to get used to life without you. Trying to get used to the fact that you are no longer around all the time. Trying to get used to no good morning texts, no daily calls, no special someone to say goodnight to. Trying to get used to being independent. Trying to get used to the fact that you had long moved on and had been long long gone in my life.

But despite losing you, I have learnt so much more. And most importantly, I have learnt so much more about loving myself. Because if even I don't love myself, who will? And I am so thankful to have  wonderful family and friends that loves me too. :')  Just hope you are happier now with your decisions and you will eventually learn to treasure yourself more.

God bless you and everyone else :)