Maybe that was what I needed. This last and the most fatal hit. When I saw the cruel truth, I felt like suddenly everything around me just became still. I felt like my heart broke into million pieces. Or even more. I want to cry it out. But nothing came out from me and it also felt like everything is choked at my throat. I'm turning 20 very soon. The big two. I know I cannot be like this anymore. So I'm never looking back anymore. I'm moving on. And I will find the courage to throw everything out by my 20th. So goodbye to you and everything you have given me. I've given up.

Maybe that was what I needed. This last and the most fatal hit. When I saw the cruel truth, I felt like suddenly everything around me just became still. I felt like my heart broke into million pieces. Or even more. I want to cry it out. But nothing came out from me and it also felt like everything is choked at my throat. I'm turning 20 very soon. The big two. I know I cannot be like this anymore. So I'm never looking back anymore. I'm moving on. And I will find the courage to throw everything out by my 20th. So goodbye to you and everything you have given me. I've given up.