"Suddenly I become a part of the past; I become a part that don't last."
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Felt like the past few weeks I haven't exactly been really happy. Actually I don't need to feel happy at all, I just wanna feel normal. Not terrible and sad and swimming in misery. It felt like nothing wants to go right. And I hate so much things that is happening right now. Sometimes, I feel so boggled down with things such that I just want to escape to a place far far away from all these things. And never come back. I know, I should be thankful, and grateful for little things in life, like my friends and family. But at this point of time, Idk…. I'm just tired. An overused word, but even this word now is a gross understatement to describe my past few weeks. Sometimes while I walk home alone, I just feel like squatting down along the road, and just cry my heart out. Maybe it will all feel better, even though I know my tears will solve absolutely nothing. And amidst all these, the only person I want to be around me right now is you. But I know it will never happen so I need to start learning to give up the thought that you will ever appear in my life again. Idk, maybe the best thing right now for me is to just be alone, and handle all my things alone. I don't need anything or anyone right now. I just need to find myself back.
"Suddenly I become a part of the past; I become a part that don't last."
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Felt like the past few weeks I haven't exactly been really happy. Actually I don't need to feel happy at all, I just wanna feel normal. Not terrible and sad and swimming in misery. It felt like nothing wants to go right. And I hate so much things that is happening right now. Sometimes, I feel so boggled down with things such that I just want to escape to a place far far away from all these things. And never come back. I know, I should be thankful, and grateful for little things in life, like my friends and family. But at this point of time, Idk…. I'm just tired. An overused word, but even this word now is a gross understatement to describe my past few weeks. Sometimes while I walk home alone, I just feel like squatting down along the road, and just cry my heart out. Maybe it will all feel better, even though I know my tears will solve absolutely nothing. And amidst all these, the only person I want to be around me right now is you. But I know it will never happen so I need to start learning to give up the thought that you will ever appear in my life again. Idk, maybe the best thing right now for me is to just be alone, and handle all my things alone. I don't need anything or anyone right now. I just need to find myself back.