Posted this photo on instagram on the day of Science Open house, wasn't planning to have such a long caption for it, but heartfelt words just came out of me. This is what I captioned:" Photobooth at science open house later in the day with my Pubz. I remember how I went to Science Open house alone last year, thinking if I should come to NUS Science. And I'm glad I did, because one year later, i'm no longer alone in this very same place. I'm so thankful that I got to know so many awesome people in this place. Thanks for not being just a place where people fight against each other because of the bell curve. Thanks for making me feel like Science is one big family :)". Felt like in this one year alone, I came a long way. But if anyone asked me if I have regretted choosing NUS and even choosing Science, I will still have no answer to this qn. 

Why no answer even though I'm happy here?  Rmb last year when I first received my A level results, I was so sure I wasn't getting into any local university. But I was lucky. Or rather God blessed me with choices, I got accepted into all 3. Took a really long time to make up my mind and chose NUS. Do I feel happy in this one year here? Yes indeed. First, SOW allowed me to know my ladybugs Sammy Ranji,Christine and  the really nice seniors I got to know and love talking to. Then came subcomm recruitment, which I made a choice I have not regretted- joining D&D comm and knowing each and everyone of them. And its also through this comm, I get exposed to many people  and things in Science. Also, majoring in applied math might not be easy, but at least its something Im interested in doing. So do I regret coming here? I still don't know. Because everyday, the thought of being somewhere else still appeals to me. What if I have chosen NTU instead? SMU biz? Would I be happier? Would I be doing even more things? Would I be doing something more applicable to the working field in the future? Would I be a different person?  Frankly, I still don't know what I really wanna do in the future, and it still haunts me every single day. I love doing math, but as much as I hate to admit, I still don't know where it will bring me.

I'm afraid, and scared. But who can help me? Only myself. 

Posted this photo on instagram on the day of Science Open house, wasn't planning to have such a long caption for it, but heartfelt words just came out of me. This is what I captioned:" Photobooth at science open house later in the day with my Pubz. I remember how I went to Science Open house alone last year, thinking if I should come to NUS Science. And I'm glad I did, because one year later, i'm no longer alone in this very same place. I'm so thankful that I got to know so many awesome people in this place. Thanks for not being just a place where people fight against each other because of the bell curve. Thanks for making me feel like Science is one big family :)". Felt like in this one year alone, I came a long way. But if anyone asked me if I have regretted choosing NUS and even choosing Science, I will still have no answer to this qn. 

Why no answer even though I'm happy here?  Rmb last year when I first received my A level results, I was so sure I wasn't getting into any local university. But I was lucky. Or rather God blessed me with choices, I got accepted into all 3. Took a really long time to make up my mind and chose NUS. Do I feel happy in this one year here? Yes indeed. First, SOW allowed me to know my ladybugs Sammy Ranji,Christine and  the really nice seniors I got to know and love talking to. Then came subcomm recruitment, which I made a choice I have not regretted- joining D&D comm and knowing each and everyone of them. And its also through this comm, I get exposed to many people  and things in Science. Also, majoring in applied math might not be easy, but at least its something Im interested in doing. So do I regret coming here? I still don't know. Because everyday, the thought of being somewhere else still appeals to me. What if I have chosen NTU instead? SMU biz? Would I be happier? Would I be doing even more things? Would I be doing something more applicable to the working field in the future? Would I be a different person?  Frankly, I still don't know what I really wanna do in the future, and it still haunts me every single day. I love doing math, but as much as I hate to admit, I still don't know where it will bring me.

I'm afraid, and scared. But who can help me? Only myself.